Personal Reflections

Based on personal reflection here are my ideas:  A-physical wellbeing-physically I am in very good health, and I contribute this to the fact that my family genetics are excellent and I try to practice healthy exercise and diet for the most part. I do not smoke and I rarely drink. However, I do not feel as healthy as I think I should. I have a constant feeling of fatigue and body aches, and I do not feel as strong as I think I should be. I do not sleep real well because of anxiety issues so this may contribute. I also have some problems with pinched nerves high in my back which may be causing problems. These I can live with as long as I continue to exercise and maintain my weight training. Based on what we have learned so far, I may be able to contribute my vague issues with my psychological status.    B-Spiritual wellbeing-I am not a really "spiritual" person by nature, I see things very scientifically and this has been the case most of my life. I feel that there is some kind of energy or power out there that is not quantifiable, kind of like karma or fate, that might control some things, but I tend to feel that we control our own destinies for the most part. In essence, I am the root of my own path in life, and how I choose to live it will control what may happen to me after I die. I follow the basics of do unto others, and I am very satisfied with how I live my spiritual life as it is.     C-Psychological wellbeing-this is where I fall short in life. I have not had a great upbringing and although I can blame my childhood for much of my psychological difficulty, I also feel that there may be a genetic component to my mental issues. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and general anxiety disorder about 20 years ago, and I have struggled to get on top of it ever since. I have tried many prescription medications and finally hit on one that works well, although we all know that medication is not perfect and cannot solve all of our problems, so the work continues today. My psychological issues have improved greatly in the last 10 years, however I still consider myself a work in progress. I no longer go to talk sessions, as I think that at this point it is up to me internally to work out my own issues, and I am open to using integral techniques like meditation and mindfulness training to help this along. So I am not where I want to be yet, but I am getting there and I try to maintain a positive, forward thinking attitude to help move along.